From what I understand he watches you. Just watches. I don’t know if he talks.
[God this was awkward] it’s not really... I don’t want to just say everything when he’s not really keen on explaining that just yet. It’s not something he enjoys.
He’s my boyfriend and he really should be the one telling you this when he’s comfortable. If he’s comfortable.
It's not the worst thing I've heard, or seen. [She sighs. A debate on what to say, what to tell.]
I've told you about my family. I didn't tell you that they only ever had one prediction for me in my life: that I would meet my true love, and kill him. Sick twist on true loves kiss, right?
Turned out to be true. It was the only way to stop the Unmaker.
So whatever he is? If he's not hurting me, my friends...people? I think I can deal.
Thanks, Blue. I’m not trying to be evasive to hide something. It’s just... I’d at least want to make sure he knows I’m telling someone before I just say something.
I’m confident he won’t hurt you and yours. Thats... he’s not like that.
I get it. I had to get used to just...explaining things about myself. Considering how often Hell forces us to talk about things, it's easier that way. Getting it out before it's forced out.
...Funny story. We were trying to stop one. An apocalypse.
Okay! Okay. [He sighs deeply, and while she can't see it he drags his hands down his face.] Remember when I said not to like... give your statement in person?
Well not really. Like he kind of...goes all "oooo spooky eyeball" guy when he's mostly dealing with the other fear avatars. He just...turns the beholding on them and they [He makes a noise like a weird fizzing explosion] kind of explode? The Eye just kind of sucks up all their fear until there's nothing left.
And I guess that's what he looks like in people's dreams? I can't confirm that 100% though.
I didn't say I was going to try, just that the consequences don't really bother me. If he doesn't want to haunt people I'm not going to go looking for that trouble, you know?
It's not just that. Talking to him is like... reliving the fear in one, calm manner until you sleep. Then you just relive your fear over and over again as he watches it all unfold standing there covered in eyes...
There was a complaint when we were at the institute. She described he just watched her, his eyes drinking in every fragment of her misery, and when it was over, he looked at her like he'd just eaten a perfectly cooked steak. [He wishes those weren't the exact words] She then started seeing him everywhere in the corner of her eyes, like he was just watching her every time she had a panic attack.
He's just... he doesn't think he's as kind as he can be. Sort of that "well I've been a prick my whole life so I guess I'll continue being one". He cares A Lot.
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Date: 2020-08-02 04:43 am (UTC)And don't bullshit me, Blackwood.
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Date: 2020-08-02 04:45 am (UTC)But it’s nothing bad!
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Date: 2020-08-02 04:56 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-08-02 05:01 am (UTC)[Yeah that’s not going to work is it?]
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Date: 2020-08-02 05:04 am (UTC)You live with the supernatural all your life, you start to know when things are up.
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Date: 2020-08-02 05:13 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-08-02 05:19 am (UTC)[And that's the sound of her calling bullshit without literally calling you out on the bullshit.]
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Date: 2020-08-02 05:21 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-08-02 05:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-08-02 05:26 am (UTC)I’m happy to record it for you if you’re comfortable telling me.
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Date: 2020-08-02 05:29 am (UTC)I'm going to try writing them actually. There's a lot of detail and I don't want to miss anything.
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Date: 2020-08-02 05:37 am (UTC)I love him but that’s— it’s a little— Jon is a great guy and I don’t want you to worry about him being some crazy evil entity. He’s not evil.
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Date: 2020-08-02 05:41 am (UTC)[It's not particularly shocked sounding, that soft little oh.]
That's not so bad, right? I mean does he like, do anything in those dreams? Or is he just...there?
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Date: 2020-08-02 05:47 am (UTC)[God this was awkward] it’s not really... I don’t want to just say everything when he’s not really keen on explaining that just yet. It’s not something he enjoys.
He’s my boyfriend and he really should be the one telling you this when he’s comfortable. If he’s comfortable.
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Date: 2020-08-02 05:55 am (UTC)It's not the worst thing I've heard, or seen. [She sighs. A debate on what to say, what to tell.]
I've told you about my family. I didn't tell you that they only ever had one prediction for me in my life: that I would meet my true love, and kill him. Sick twist on true loves kiss, right?
Turned out to be true. It was the only way to stop the Unmaker.
So whatever he is? If he's not hurting me, my friends...people? I think I can deal.
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Date: 2020-08-02 06:01 am (UTC)I’m confident he won’t hurt you and yours. Thats... he’s not like that.
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Date: 2020-08-02 06:02 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-08-05 07:13 pm (UTC)I uh...Sorry, for pushing. Past experiences and all that kind of means I needed some answers.
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Date: 2020-08-06 01:56 am (UTC)It's not an easy thing to talk about. Before this, we were kind of, sort of, travelling through the apocalypse?
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Date: 2020-08-06 02:36 am (UTC)...Funny story. We were trying to stop one. An apocalypse.
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Date: 2020-08-07 02:39 pm (UTC)[Awkward. Considering.]
I'm guessing you don't know if you stopped it?
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Date: 2020-08-10 02:24 am (UTC)Voice
Date: 2020-09-13 08:27 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-09-13 08:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-09-13 08:29 pm (UTC)That.
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Date: 2020-09-13 08:31 pm (UTC)[J O N]
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Date: 2020-09-13 08:37 pm (UTC)Come off it, I'm not blind or dumb. So what the actual fuck.
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Date: 2020-09-13 08:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-09-13 08:42 pm (UTC)He's not like creepy, but that was not what I was expecting. Adam had a bunch of eyeballs once.
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Date: 2020-09-13 08:46 pm (UTC)And I guess that's what he looks like in people's dreams? I can't confirm that 100% though.
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Date: 2020-09-13 08:48 pm (UTC)He's kind of cool. Like a too many eyeballs Mothman.
Guess the explosion bit wouldn't be good. But I'm not one of these avatars and I'm not sure if that beholding of yours will do anything here.
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Date: 2020-09-14 12:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-09-20 01:38 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-09-20 01:50 am (UTC)It's not just that. Talking to him is like... reliving the fear in one, calm manner until you sleep. Then you just relive your fear over and over again as he watches it all unfold standing there covered in eyes...
There was a complaint when we were at the institute. She described he just watched her, his eyes drinking in every fragment of her misery, and when it was over, he looked at her like he'd just eaten a perfectly cooked steak. [He wishes those weren't the exact words] She then started seeing him everywhere in the corner of her eyes, like he was just watching her every time she had a panic attack.
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Date: 2020-09-20 01:58 am (UTC)Either way, I'm not going to purposefully seek him out to make a statement or whatever. You've both asked to avoid that. I can respect that.
[A pause, but she has to add:]
You're basically dating like a cryptid or something, you know that right?
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Date: 2020-09-20 02:34 am (UTC)But I love him.
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Date: 2020-09-29 02:08 am (UTC)[Wherein I feel guilty tagging this because of RECENT EVENTS.]
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Date: 2020-10-01 04:51 pm (UTC)He's just... he doesn't think he's as kind as he can be. Sort of that "well I've been a prick my whole life so I guess I'll continue being one". He cares A Lot.
[A Lot.]